What Happens After a Spiritual Awakening? A Story of Grief, Growth, and Becoming

People talk about spiritual awakenings like they’re this radiant, soul-shaking epiphany. A light switch moment. Blissful. Instant clarity. An awakening.

But here’s the truth no one tells you: most awakenings don’t feel like light. They feel like loss.

Mine began slowly. Not with divine downloads or messages from the universe, but with exhaustion. With crying on my way to work. Crying on my lunch breaks. Crying in the bathroom because I felt stuck in a life that looked “fine” on paper, but left me empty and suffocating inside.